I Lost Me

August 1, 2025 Belinda M. Lane

Through the tears I lost me

Through the heartaches I lost me

I turned around and saw my footprints scattered in various directions, with no clear path

to follow or return to

I lost me in the misunderstandings

I lost me when I betrayed my soul and followed what my heart believed to be true

I lost me as friends begin to drift away during my difficult times

I lost me when I reached out for a hand to hold

I lost me, realizing no one understood of where I was standing and why

Sitting and looking for the me I couldn’t find

Looking at the me that was left behind

I heard a whisper that spoke softly, “Look again”

With a fresh vision, I saw I wasn’t lost

The misunderstandings gave me insight for a new way of seeing.

What appeared to be a betrayal was my soul making a correction in my heart.

My friends were seasonal and even though they left at a difficult time in my life, their season had come to an end. I now understood that holding any hand can lead me down the wrong path without a shared understanding of why we are hand in hand.

By losing myself, I discovered newness, a fresh start within me, as I “Looked again”.

*****

It’s hard sometimes to see when you are hurting or disappointed or both. However, if we can stop and see, we know we have lived yet another day. How we choose to live another day will depend on how we see our self through what appears to be stained glasses.

It will always be up to us to move on, no matter whose fault it appears or actually is at fault. We have to stop putting our appeared outcome in other people's hand. Regardless of the events that unfolded, we are ultimately left with ourselves. We are always left with self, and life will move on with or without us.

Thank you for joining me for Friday at Sundown. Remember… Just Breathe!

Resources:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Dial 988

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you

800-273-8255

Domestic Violence

National Domestic Violence Hotline can help victims, survivors of domestic violence. Call 1-800-799-7233. Chat w/an advocate on our website. National Domestic Violence Hotline: www.thehotline.org/ 

Aid for Military Veterans

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Welcome Home is Celebrate Recovery's (CR) tool to help veterans stuck in hurts, hang-ups, and habits. (These statements are from CR’s Homepage). You are not alone.